Living the dream

I am so overjoyed to have Elizabeth with me at Pemberly! She just lights up my world. I am also very happy about the fact that her and Georgianna seem to be getting along quite nicely. I am surprised to see that even Miss Bingley has lessened her hatred. The only loose end in my life is that of Lydia and Wickham. hey are constantly asking for money and they are starting to bother Bingley and Jane about it too. Oh well, you win some you lose some. I am also proud to announce that Bingley and Jane really do appear to be happy together. I cant wait to see the joys that my life with Elizabeth brings!

Asking Mr. Bennet

Awhile after, I returned to The Bennet's home to talk to Mr. Bennet. I wanted to ask for his daughter's hand in mairrage. Unfortunately he did not beileve that our love was true. Jane also felt that it was not true love that motivated my intentions. Both Lizzy and I convinced him of the passion that we share. It was not until after Elizabeth mentioned that I was the one that payed off Wickham that i was greeted most cordially by Mrs. Bennet.

I just can't stay away

I have gone to visit my dear friend Mr. Bingley at Netherfield Park. It is very near to Elizabeth's home. Actually we even payed a visit to the Bennet home. I was extremely pleased that I got to have some alone time with Lizzy. As much as I want to marry her, the timing felt off and I wanted to ask her father's permission still. She even informede that she is now more than willing to marry me!!!! I dont think life gets any better than this!

Lady Catherine interferes (shocking)

I was informed by Elizabeth that my aunt came to visit her. They went on a short walk together.Apparently my aunt told Lizzy not to accept my proposal. I don't know why my aunt feels the need to interject her views into my life. It is my live and I choose to I've it with Elizabeth but for some reason Lady Catherine cannot accept that.

She knows now

After all of the drama, finally Lydia and Wickham are married. following the wedding, the newlyweds stay at the Bennet's house. Lydia proceeds to tell Lizzy that i was at the wedding and shortly after, Lizzy writes a letter to Mrs. Gardiner to ask for the whole story. Mrs. Gardiner then explains all about how it was  who found Lydia and Wickham. She aalso finds out that it was me who payed Wickham off. I just wish she knew so she would know my love for her.

Lydia's whereabouts

Mr. Gardiner and Mr. Bennet have teamed p in order to find Lydia. They have searched what seemed like nearly every hotel but have still come up empty handed. Also, a letter has been recieved from the ho so wonderful Mr. Collins. In this letter he states just how glad he is that he had not married into the Bennet family. He also talks about how embarassed the family must be by this situation. As the sarch continues Mr. Bennet must return home but rest assured that Mr. Gardiner is still hunting for them.

Wickham's Request

Lydia and Wickham have been found my Mr. Gardiner. This entire ordal has caused quite a scandal in Lizzy hometown! Wickham agrees to marry Lydia if the Bennet family agrees to pay him a small sum. The Bennets assume that the Gardiners have already payed Wickham a much larger sum for the mairrage, which would mean the Gardiners are to payed back. Unknown to both parties is the facth that I am the one who payed Wickham off and I do not expect anything in return.

Some news from Lizzy

I have been infomed by Elizabeth that the Bennet family has not taken to kindly to the idea of Wickham and Lydia, as expected. She has also told me that her father has gone off to London in search of Lydia. I have also been told that poor Mrs. Bennet is distraught over the matter. She is now blaming Colonel Foster for not having watched Lydia close enough.
Meanwhile, the family has recieved a letter from Lydia about her plans of mairrage with Wickham. It came as a shock to the famly that she even signed the letter with the name Lydia Wickham. I hope that Lizzy knows that i'm here if she ever needs a shoulder to cry on.

Life without Lizzy

After the deeparture of Lizzy, my sister, the Bingleys and myself all enjoyed a delightful meal together. However, I so deeply with that Elizabeth could have been there. Her presence is need just as much as the air I breathe in, it hurts to be without her. It also pains me that she is going through some tough times right now due to Wickham. I absolutely detest that man for what he did to Georgianna. Now his less than decent conduct is starting to harm Elizabeth too.

Wickham and Lydia?

I have recently been informed by Elizabeth that Lydia, the youngest Bennett, has run away with Wickham. She heard about this via letter frome Jane. Also, it has been said that the family has not hard from Lydia for some time. Unfortunately this means that Lizzy had to leave earlier than I expected. I was extremely sad to see her go, but if it were my sister, I would do the same thing.

Some people need manners

Today I had the distinct pleasure of visiting Elizabeth at her inn. Mr. Bingley and Georgianna were also with us. We thought it best to invite her to dine with us at Pemberly the following evening. The next day after Lizzy's arrival, Georgianna begins to rudely bring upon the subject of the milita and the effect it poses on Lizzy's family. Elizabeth gracefully avoided the subject of Wickham, for which i am truly grateful. Again the oppertunity for me to proclaim my love for Lozzy prsented itself and i took it without so much as a backwards glance.

My walk with Lizzy and the Gardiners

Earlier today i saw Elizabeth and the Gardiners out on a stroll. I decided I should treat them to my presence, therefore I joined  the party. Elizabeth seemed to feel a little bit uncomfortable at my presence but alas, I had to see her. Regardless, I tried my best to be nice and gentleman-like to the Gardiners and to Lizzy. Afterwards, i had to go back to my estate to prepare for the arrival of the Bingleys and Geogianna. I also invited Elizabeth to meet Georgianna, hope all goes well!

How could I let this happen????

I can't stop thinking about her. She consumes my every thought! I just cannot believe that she said no. I was so sure of myself! I love her with my entire being but it saddens me to know that  she fels exactly the opposite.
I am so distraught about this entire affair. I dont want to see or speak to anyone. I just want to be left alone in this depressed state of mine.

I think she is catching on...

Every time I see Lizzy today, I can't seem to take my eyes off her! I am following her around like a puppy. I dont know what it is about her that I find so alluring! Her pride maybe? I suppose that is one theory. But nonetheless I do believe she is catching on to my undeniable affection for her.  I just can't seem to be away from her for any length of time. I can only hope that she feels the same way

The ring

This is the ring that I plan on giving her if she will agree to marry me! My sister, Georgianna, helped me pick it out. She still however, thinks Lizzy is too low for me, which of course I already knew about. But nonetheless I will ask for her hand in matrimony. I hope she likes the ring!

I'm so nervous!

I finally think that I will do it today! Today is the day that I will actually tell her how I feel. For so long I have loved her from afar, but now she seems so close that I can practically taste her sweet essense in the air around me. I am going to ask her to marry me later today! I hope she will say yes. But then again, why wouldent she?I am of course of so much higher rank then her..... But I digress. Wish me luck!